Make It A Hurricane Before I Go Insane...

Secret Number Thirty Five: I'm terrified to leave home.

Okay, so I think I'm gonna start using this blog as my photography spot until I can afford to create my own website. Here are some pictures I took of a good friend of mine for his videography business.

Speak

Secret Number Eighteen: Sometimes I start to think that my life is nice and start smiling and waking up hopeful...and then Life slaps me on the face and says, "You idiot, your life is crap so quit humming Show Tunes." Drat.

So, my computer had a massive heart attack and died last week while my sister was trying to make it work faster. Poor old geezer, didn't have a chance. So, I've been walking aimlessly around without the joy of listening to my Itunes or adding onto my book. I can't look at my pictures...which means my blogs will be absent of photography for an unknown period of time. I'm stuck reading and doing homework, or driving around wasting money on crap I don't need.

Speaking of books, I bought Speak. I started it in First period, and finished it in Fifth while we watched an insanely boring video in English. I realized within the first two pages that I knew this story, and when I thought about it, I realized that I saw a TV movie based on it one night while hiding in the dark at my father's house. It was on the Oxygen channel. "Bella" was in it; she did pretty well since she's already very odd. Anyways, the book put me into an even worse funk than I was already in. This was my thought process all day:
Sleep. Food. Pain. I hate my eyebrows. She's too pretty. Why didn't I put on make-up today. Cafeteria food should be illegal. Teenagers are annoying. Physics is cruel. Hate. Hate. Hate her. Pain. Memories. Regret. Pity. Tired.

I'm supposed to be driving to the middle school nearby for my Mentor-Mentee group thing, but my little girl is sick, so I'm skipping. Why act like my life is great and I don't care about what people in high-school think of me and I'm comfortable with who I am when I'm so so so not?

I might start working on a new novel, since I can't get to Sunshine right now. Ugh.

"I want your ugly, I want your disease. I want your everything as long as it's free." - Bad Romance, Lady Gag A

Take My Hand and Let's Dance...

Secret Number Seventeen: I can't write without music.

Yes, my millions of avid followers, I know that I've failed to blog in a long time. So, so sorry. (heh.)

Lots of craziness since the new trimester (instead of SEMESTER, yeah, my school is cool) started, I've been crazy busy. I can't believe how close I am to being a senior. Wow.

As you've probably heard, Texas received a record amount of snow a little bit ago. It was AMAZING. I played all day in the snow with the boyfriend. And took pictures. :) Also, I promised I'd photograph my friends for the guy friend's vday gift to the girl friend. :) I'll include some of those too. :)

Enough talk, here's some photos.





































and of course, I made the boyfriend pose with me for a few pics. :)

It's a Quarter After One, I'm All Alone and I Need You Now.

Secret Number Sixteen: I have a recent obsession with elephants. I've always been obsessed with giraffes.

Today is Friday, yet it didn't really FEEL like it. School is killer and I wish to strangle certain immature students in some of my classes. However, that would be frowned upon. I'd most likely get kicked out and then embrace my dream of running a McDonald's. Yay.

Picture time? Yes. The first is dedicated to my friend, Jenna. :) She is great and blogged about how great I am. She's a wonderful girl, always full of love and joy, and so I'm putting this picture up just for her. :)







Okay back to all seriousness... these are three of the very first pictures I ever took with a 35mm. It was my dad's and I fell in love instantly. They aren't the greatest, but I still love them.

Generate the False Alarms, the Verdict is Conterfeit..

Secret Number Fifteen: I wish I had more of a country accent.

School: a chubby kid with a magnifying glass, giggling as I squirm in pain.
Life: full of selfishness, hate, disappointment, and fat.


These are some of the pictures my wonderfully bright sister edited for me. This is my eldest brother and his girlfriend/future fiancé :)
"Baby I've been waiting for this long hard day to be over, So I can rest my head right here on your shoulder" I Wanna Make You Close Your Eyes, Dierks Bentley

I Think You and I Should Stay the Same...

Secret Number Fourteen: I honestly believe that you could do better, but I'm glad you're so unobservant. :)

Life: is a big scribble on a blank sheet of paper. With big, fat blotches of ink and holes from pressing too hard.

Good news? I finally got my pictures from the sister. So, I'll start putting a few up at a time.

These are pictures of one of my best friends. I've started on a project, and she's the first I've photographed for it. And the last. I just don't get the chance...

Yeah, I took these balancing a lamp on my left shoulder and focusing with one hand. :)

And Let the Sun Wrap Its Arms Around Me...

Secret Number Thirteen: I love sad music.

So, I got my license today! About freaking time if you ask me. I even got to skip first period to go get it. :)

Sadly, I don't have a parking spot yet, so I can't drive to and from school...

PICTURES!
(Left) is a random picture I took of my shirt drying in the summer. I got this off of my photobucket, since my sister still hasn't given me my photos..

Second: is just a closer up shot. :) I like.













"If the silence takes you, then I hope It takes me, too..." Soul Meets Body, Death Cab for Cutie

I Wanna Feel That Lightning..

Secret Number Twelve: Large groups of people make me anxious and cranky, but I hate being alone.

So, it's the weekend...and I'm at home like a loser on the computer. The boyfriend is watching 'THE GAME' at his friend's house. I was invited. However, I don't prefer being ignored. Plus, I don't understand football, so why watch? (I only enjoy the first five minutes as they show the men bending over and stretching in those tight pants..mmm.)

So yes. I have decided to ask my boss for a well-deserved raise (in my and everyone else's opinion), but being the wuss that I am, I have prolonged the whole affair. You don't understand how much of a jerk my boss is. And it's hard to figure out if he's having a good or bad day, so you never know when to ask for something. Yeah. Maybe tomorrow...

First (left): This is a random picture of my two best friends. It's blurry, I know. But I like the color and light.


Second: This is another of the few that I took of my other friend. The lighting is harsh on her face, but I'm sure I could fix it if I wanted to :)

Third: This is the first picture I ever took with my dad's 35mm of live people. :) These are two of my friends, being silly girls. I love it. :)

"It's her hair and her eyes that take me away today.." Out of my League, Stephen Speaks

They're Laughing at You, Laughing at You and Me...

Secret Number Eleven: I write best when listening to orchestra music, preferably Beethoven.

So, today was THE coldest day Texas has had in a very long time, and yet my school district still insisted on making us reluctant students slip and slide to school. It was miserable, and tomorrow is supposed to be even COLDER. Ha. Like I'M going out there to warm up my car. Psht. Make the dang supervisor person come scratch off the ice on my windows.

Today wasn't very exciting, nothing worthy of typing out on my blog that no one reads.

So, a picture or two and I'm done..
First one (on left)- another one of my sister and her now fiancé. I'm just proud of myself for catching the seeds flying off of the thingy-ma-jig.

Second(to the right) is one of two of my best friends in the world looking for cute boys in my freshman yearbook. I think this was taken with my DAD'S 35mm, same brand and year, just now mine is a different copy. I just like the colors...


And lastly, a random picture from LAST New Year's, so 2009. I went to a huge party for a friend's birthday where everyone stayed the night at her dad's boss's house. It was pretty. This is aforementioned friend with sparkler. I took this picture, hoping it would come out. I have yet to learn about controlling aperture and such, so I just winged it.


Okay, that's all. :)
"I look fly, I look good. Touch my swag, wish you could!" I Look Good, Charlie Boy

But if You Never Try, You'll Never Know What You're Worth.

Secret Number Ten: My smile is my favorite, and only best feature.

So, today was the first day back to High school life. Ah, I sure missed all of the "drama, all the backstabbing and stink-eyes". That's a very small snippet from my book. It's super teeny tiny, but when I was planning out my first sentence, that line from my first chapter popped in my head, so I quoted it. Can you quote yourself? I'm not too sure. Ah, well. I personally think that I am quotable.

Anywho, school actually is one of my favorite things.
Quick! A list of Lauren's Favorite Things!
1) polaroid cameras
2) the smell and feel of old book pages
3) writing
4) reading
5) Harry Potter
6) Denzel Washington
7) chocolate
8) my boyfriend's smile
9) inside jokes
10) dancing

Okay, that's enough. Those are my top ten, and when I say 'Top Ten' (there I go quoting myself again), I mean the first ten things that came to my head. So yeah, school. Although in this trimester, I'm taking on AP Physics and stupid, vile, putrid, disgusting, agonizing, heart-wrenching...Regulars U.S. History...wait, where was I going with this? Basically, school is complicated. BUT, I'm trying to stay positive. Positive.

So, this is a picture of my eldest brother and his beautiful girlfriend/ baby's mother that I adore and love with my whole heart. This is one of the photos that I mentioned in an earlier blog that I STILL don't have the originals of. Soon though...soon.

"What an amazing time, what a family. How did the years go by? Now it's only me..." - What're You Waiting For?, Gwen Stafani

Just One More Plane Ride and It's Done...

Secret Number Nine: My hair is my security blanket.

Welcome to 2010. Just one more year till graduation...two more years till the world ends (supposedly).

I've tried to come up with some New Year Resolutions. However, I know that I always fail miserably and give up on each one. Oh well, here they are.
1. Lighten up. (Not sure how I'll do that)
2. Lose that roll on yo belly! (That's been there since 6th grade, according to loving Mama)
3. Finish, and edit book. (Yeah, like that'll happen.)
4. Photograph more.

There they are! Only four, yet I'm pretty sure I'll end up blowing all of them off. Ah, well. :) Too tired to really chit chat like the norm, so I'll conclude with a photo.

Maybe I should start putting a disclaimer thingy on my photos; I keep seeing it on other peoples' pictures...hmm...I'll work on that..

I hope that's you..I hope that's me...

Secret Number Seven: Sometimes (most of the time) I'm only pretending I'm mad so you'll rush over and kiss me to make me happy. :)

Today was the first day...the first day to start two weeks of blissful nothingness. Winter Break. Ah, well, actually I'll be working the majority of this time, but it must be done. See, I'm a huge planner-freak. I love to make lists and guesstimate times and prices of stuff. When I started working, I made a year-long plan on a huge piece of notebook paper, scoping out my entire year of work so that I can buy my jeep next year. January, of next year. However, I failed to consider major holidays and special occasions. Like Christmas. So now, I'm behind. And I must pay the price: hard-core working.

Luckily, a woman I work with needs a baby-sitter. So there's extra cash AND someone else wants me to babysit during the week when I get my license. So there's another possible input of money. I'm crossing my fingers on this school-week job, cause it'd be such a big help what with insurance and all that jazz. But, I've been playing phone-tag with this family. PRAY that I'll get a hold of them or the other way around.

Gah. OH! Finally got our new manager this week, so today was a VERY happy day at work. Especially since I only had to work three hours. yay me:)

So, I took this picture when I first got my 35mm. I decided to walk around the neighborhood with my three cameras(35mm, digital, polaroid) and try to find something worth photographing. And this is one of the things I found in someone's front yard. This is one of my top faves.
Still nothing on the pictures that were ruined-then-saved.

I'm sleepy and tired of waiting for the boyfriend to call me and say good night, so I'm just gonna go crash...or maybe read:)

Lo OUT.

Please Don't Let My Dreams Run Dry...

Secret Number Six: I bite my lip constantly when I'm working hard on something or concentrating.

So, yes die-hard fans, I know I haven't posted a blog in forever and a day. I'm so sorry.

So, to catch you up, I've been running around crazy what with Christmas shopping, ETI stuff, a depressed boyfriend, and my idiot boss who is making me contemplate homicide. So FIRST, Christmas. Oh my Baby-Jesus! Now that I have a job and I actually have to buy presents, I'm realizing how insane it is! Trying to find the perfect gift and such. Gah. It's pretty friggen exhausting. Not to mention I still owe my savings 58 dollars...and I'm still not done shopping. 'Tis the season, eh?
Secondly, Christmas is also insane at my elementary school, and I have to add 21 little first graders onto my already mile-long list! Screw the holiday spirit, they all get friggen pencils! Nah, I'm just kidding. They're too cute. OH! PLUS, to top it all off, my ETI teacher assigned ANOTHER ETI student for my teacher at the elementary school! So now I have to compete for my kids' affection! How stupid is that? Share the love with teachers who don't have an ETI student, for God's sake! Ugh. At least I'm winning the competition so far :)
Thirdly, the boyfriend. He's going through so much crap right now with family and such, and I'm working so hard to keep him happy. Not to mention the fact that he's owed his friend 90 bucks for like six months and can't pay him back. So, naturally, I said I'd take care of it. I don't want to, since I'm already behind as it is on my savings plan for the JEEP, but whatever. Call me Jesus.
And last, and definitely least, my boss. When I say boss, I mean store owner. My cool, caring boss quit, leaving me with my jackass head-guy-dude who has no heart. The way he treats his staff and the store is so ludicrous. This man...ugh. Let's just say, I'm in the biggest hurry to quit.

Anywhoo..I got the chance to take some photos of my sister and her beau, my brother and his beau, and my sister's friend and HER beau. :) We went downtown for an urban feel. It was freaking freezing, especially since I laid on the cold wet ground multiple times to get the perfect picture. However, due to the rainy and super cloudy weather, my photos were pretty much ruined. The way the light works with clouds can either help or harm your photos, and the clouds that day definitely did the latter. Luckily, my sister is the wiz at different picture-editing programs and is in the process of saving my less-than-perfect pictures. I haven't received the pictures yet, but when I do I shall post. :) For now, I'll keep posting old pics.
This one is of a rose the boyfriend gave me for my 16th birthday. I let the flower sit in the sunshine on my window sill to dry it out, and it ended up giving it a pretty, gold edge. So, I took a picture. It was kind of complicated focusing my camera, but I'd just place it to my eye, put it down and focus, and do it again until I got it right:)

Enough talking, I'll shut up.
"And you can see that I can't stop shaking..." -Dancing by Elisa